Been awhile, has it not?
It’s not that I’ve lost interest in wrestling; I’ve just been incredibly busy over the last couple of years. There’s also been issues with my physical health; injuries that have kept me out of the gym and out of the ring. I am not nearly in the kind of shape I need to be in to ever put on the trunks, lace up my boots, and pull a mask on, climb through the ropes and beat some people’s asses…but I am getting there. It’s harder this time than it was before–I am older, and my bad habits have become that much more entrenched, but I am confident I can get back into shape. Maybe not this shape:
but certainly better than what I’ve been in. I’ve always had a complicated relationship with weight and my body; one thing I’ve always envied straight dudes is that swaggering self-confidence they all seem to have–particularly when I look at them and think, really?
And really, I probably won’t ever get back to that kind of shape. That was probably peak body for me–my body has always been peaks and valleys. I’ve managed to continue working out over the last few years, around injury time-outs and so forth, and I’ve gained size. So getting back down to a 31 waist and 180 pounds like I was in the match with Pink Puma is probably not very likely; it’s possible, but I just don’t have the time, desire, or energy to do all the work it would require. I’m also not in a huge rush to get there, the way I used to be; without a taping to motivate me that urgency just isn’t there. But I’m pretty proud of the fact I was 45 when I went before the cameras at BGEast for the first time, and 49 the last time. Right now I’ve gotten down to around 210 (from a high of 227); and I can fit back into a 33 waist jeans. Not bad for 56, I’d say. I’d like to get to around 200 by New Year’s, and I think that’s probably a good, lean weight for me to get to and then maintain.
Part of the reason I am reactivating this blog is to help document my journey back to optimal fitness; I’ve also missed writing about wrestling. There aren’t many markets out there any more for erotic short stories about wrestling; and there was a time, shortly after Going Down for the Count was released that I thought I was done with writing about wrestling for good; I’ve written all I had to say. But I find that not to be true anymore…I’ve missed watching matches, staying on top of the gay wrestling video world, making friends and having matches. There are a lot of video companies out there now; a lot of new wrestlers to look at–it’s a whole new world.
My goal is to blog here at least two or three times a week; my other writing and my life blog are always going to have to come first. And the draw of wrestling for gay men, its innate homoeroticism, is a subject that continues to fascinate and draw me in.
So, welcome back. I hope you’ll come along for the ride. Stop in, kick back, and check things out around here…maybe you’ll like it; maybe you won’t.
But I’m betting it will never be dull around here.